“How could this happen?”
“Why Kevin?”
“Lord, how could you take this man from his wife and children?”
“…and his friends?”
Then Sunday morning I went to church to support Suzie. The strength she has exhibited has been amazing through all of this. Joe asked that we all begin in prayer. And huddled with Suzie and Jen and Stacey and Linda I cried for my loss. As hard as I’ve cried in my life.
Then Joe began to preach. And somewhere during his sermon I felt something.
Something totally unexpected.
I felt envious of Kevin.
He was now standing in Heaven with our loving Father. He was in the presence of God. Is there a better place that any of us could be? I can only imagine the joy and happiness Kevin is experiencing now. He has the prize. I have no doubt that as he entered Heaven he heard “Well done, good and faithful servant”.
As I stumble through the days I get flashes. Memories hit me from no where like a ton of bricks. And then they are gone. How he approached his tee shot. How he stood when he was grilling. How his eyes lit up talking Hokie football. Him running around yelling after Santana Moss beat Dallas on a Monday Night Football game and half waking his house. Good memories.
I am sad and jealous. But I know in my heart that Kevin is in all his glory.
I want to live like there's no tomorrow
I want to give like I have plenty
Chris Tomlin
Kevin Lawyer, my best friend, lived his life like this more than anyone I knew.
I love you my brother.