One week ago.....

The last week of my life has been one of the most difficult I have ever had to endure. In my own selfish nature I have been angry.

“How could this happen?”
“Why Kevin?”
“Lord, how could you take this man from his wife and children?”
“…and his friends?”

Then Sunday morning I went to church to support Suzie. The strength she has exhibited has been amazing through all of this. Joe asked that we all begin in prayer. And huddled with Suzie and Jen and Stacey and Linda I cried for my loss. As hard as I’ve cried in my life.

Then Joe began to preach. And somewhere during his sermon I felt something.
Something totally unexpected.

I felt envious of Kevin.

He was now standing in Heaven with our loving Father. He was in the presence of God. Is there a better place that any of us could be? I can only imagine the joy and happiness Kevin is experiencing now. He has the prize. I have no doubt that as he entered Heaven he heard “Well done, good and faithful servant”.

As I stumble through the days I get flashes. Memories hit me from no where like a ton of bricks. And then they are gone. How he approached his tee shot. How he stood when he was grilling. How his eyes lit up talking Hokie football. Him running around yelling after Santana Moss beat Dallas on a Monday Night Football game and half waking his house. Good memories.

I am sad and jealous. But I know in my heart that Kevin is in all his glory.

I want to live like there's no tomorrow

I want to dance like no one's around

I want to sing like nobody's listening

Before I lay my body down
I want to give like I have plenty

I want to love like I'm not afraid

I want to be the man I was meant to be

I want to be the way I was made

Chris Tomlin

Kevin Lawyer, my best friend, lived his life like this more than anyone I knew.

I love you my brother.

Chesapeake Bay Bridge

More Lost speculation

I think that Ben's contact on the Frieighter is none other than Michael. As part of his deal to get off the island, Ben told Michael to watch out for any expeditions to find the island, Black Rock, or Oceanic 815.

Looks like Thursday will be a great episode. Some spoilers out there suggest a couple of crazy reveals.

Lost Theory......

I have a theory after last nights flash back episode featuring the Losties "rescurers". It was revealed that they are there for Ben Linus. And here is my theory.....

They were all in young Ben's class and have since left the island only to find out that Ben killed everyone they loved.

And I also think Sayid will be revealed next week as part of the Oceanic 6.

So there is it. Take if for what it's worth.